Hi everyone, l have just come out of hospital, after 5 days! Fantastic staff in ALL Categories, my god! A visit to the hospital soon reminds you of what makes this world great, those angels that devote their time to us that are sick is always amazing. The pay is irrelevant, ask any soldier whom has seen real close quarter battle & the lifetime memories & what they do to you! These guys see it every day, yet turn up for work.
I as usual fall in love with everybody, which is embarrassing for a 300lb, 6ft bloke. I want so hard to be liked by everyone, it hurts when most push me away, (metaphorically speaking), l wear my heart on my sleeve, & sadly, people think l am weird because l openly express my feelings, l am gay, & having finally come out to myself, then l get COPD, my hiatus hernia comes out again , Yahoo! I have neglected my health, BMI 42+, generalised anxiety disorder, .......? Now! Something to do with 'lower edema?' Knee down my feet as well swelling up retaining water, risky! No choice docs had to take chance give me prednisone, (don't forget, l am 147kg+) what does prednisone do, it adds weight. I have 6 to take tomorrow, 4 the next day, 2 the next, fruemesode??? Water??
The specialist team said, they are happy for me to work, but, very light duties! MAN, my doctor is angry, he knows EXACTLY what they are doing, it is their petty revenge, because I dared to get angry at them for not respecting me enough, to at least let me know by text/automated email? When having to cancel appts. Hell! We understand why for Christs sake, l have just spent from the 22 dec. To 08 January ALL ON MY OWN, NO-ONE TO TALK FOR ALL THAT TIME! I spent xmas day, boxing day with a seriously infected throat, & swollen legs, too scared to go to my doctors, or waste the hospitals time! What could l do? My legs had been swollen for so long! I was in nagging aching pain like a toothache 24/7. I rang the 0800 number for ambulance, got told off, ring emergency, l just wanted ambulance officer, whenever free to stop over & check me out, THEN decide if I needed more help, l didn't want to waste time, setting off alarm bells if unnecessary.
My doctor is angry, (his words) "You use a bloody walking frame, l let you get ahead of me deliberately, to study you gait from behind! You weave like a drunk, you have muti-factorial problems, all making you incapable of work for at least 2/3yrs, maybe the rest of your life! I have about 20 pills to take, annoro eĺlipta, sabutimol".
I am having serious, earthquake like tremors, they will go on for minutes, l am totally exhausted, it is my anxiety, l can't control it, it is like, the little boy in me has flicked the light switch on & my master brain, has to run around in the dark , feeling for the switch to turn the lights back on! I need help! Finally the hospital knows now! My doctor is angry, he will look after me now!
The hospital said & my doctor agrees, my COPD is there, is not going away,EVER! But, with good rehab, l can maintain it well, my GAD is the immediate danger here, not the copd, that is why l need to get psychological help! (That is what l have wanted, since l opened that gate & let the horse bolt! Sadly, there was other demons in there that also got away, l can't catch them on my own, but, l am not spending the rest of my life, chasing them down!
daveyboy
conundrum who as the answer?
Home nebuliser 
Waste of time and money
Speechless with anger 
