Hi everyone, I’ve just joined
just to warn you that my story might trigger some people.
A couple of days ago I found out I’m pregnant (it’s still very early, 3 weeks ish)
I have one child, he’s nearly 13. When I had him the birth was traumatic and I went on to develop acute postpartum psychosis, I was sectioned and stayed at a mbu in the mental health hospital in our nearest town for 2 weeks. The whole thing was obviously awful and I was so ill that my son wasn’t able to stay with me overnight in there. The doctors put me on a very high dose of antipsychotics and ultimately when I can home I was completely numb to the point where I couldn’t really move or do anything and felt the most awful feelings I’d ever felt in my life. The worst part lasted about 2 months, then I started to slowly get back to normal over a year or so. I still suffer with anxiety on and off now and take sertraline daily.
Finding out that I’m pregnant again has brought all of this back to me and left me wondering how me and my partner could ever cope with going through all of that again and coming out the other side. We’re both feeling really overwhelmed and are not sure what to do for the best. We also have our son to think about, I wouldn’t want him to see me go through all of that. I’m also older now 38 and my partner is 41 and have been looking up all of the increased risks to pregnancy and to the baby that come with being older.
I wanted to ask for others experiences of having a second baby after having postpartum psychosis the first time round.. anyone else’s stories would be really helpful thank you
And sorry for the long post!