Listening to uplifting music.

[Poulson]

I have been listening to some music tonight. It brings back a lot of memories of my children when they were little, like Christmases, birthdays and holidays.

The music also reminds me of my treasured grandparents. I have lots of good memories of my grandparents. I have been completing my journal and am finding it very cathartic. I am awaiting my telephone consultation with a private psychiatrist soon.

I miss my children and granddaughter. It is very hard for me with all the lies and conjecture that my family and the health authority have said about me. I still have nightmares about my family and ex-partners, but now I have found a diamond in my present husband. I have not heard anything from the police yet.

I have been reading again and doing my 3rd assignment for the Mental Health Awareness Course Level 2 and 3 Diploma.

Best Wishes X

[Nicolaba]

Hi Poulson, it must be hard to be away from your family but it sounds like you are doing some really positive things with your time. Take care of yourself

[Poulson in reply to Nicolaba]

Dear Nicolaba.

I have sent my journal to the consultant psychiatrist for a second opinion. I have named and shamed my family and the health authority. I intend having my journal published one day when I complete it. I am fed up to the back teeth of people putting the blame on me for their problems.

I have been put through the mental health system for years, sectioned on numerous occasions and sent to prison twice. I believe in God and that everything in life happens for a reason. My family and the health authority are going to have to pay for their sins now.

I used to say to my husband that they will have to answer to a higher power, but as I also said to him, a dog can only be poked in the eye so many times before it retaliates. I know I am doing the correct thing after years of sexual, physical, emotional, psychological, narcissistic and financial abuse at the hands of others, and the blame being put at my feet.

Best Wishes XX

[Poulson in reply to Nicolaba]

Dear Nicolaba.

I have arranged an appointment with a consultant psychiatrist from London. It is tomorrow at 12pm over Skype. I have sent my journal to her. I will let you now how I get on.

Best wishes XX