Hi, I'm new here.
I'm currently 22 weeks pregnant with my first child. I have bipolar and am taking some of my usual meds but not all as I was afraid of the risk to the baby.
Lately, I have been feeling very low and am thinking dreadful things - that I hate the baby inside me, that I don't want it anymore (this was a planned pregnancy) among other things. I keep crying because I'm so upset at this baby. I feel very confused about how I feel if I'm honest.
I am under the care of the perinatal team and my community mental health team but I don't know how to bring any of this up with them because it makes me sound like a terrible person. I'm scared of being judged because everyone seems to be very happy I'm pregnant. Any advice much appreciated.
Thanks in advance.