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Hey everyone, sorry I’ve not been around for ages, I’ve been in hospital 9 months!
So on Tuesday I asked for some for some clothes as I was freezing cold and they said they were too short staffed to get me any. So I walked down to the store room, kicked the door and got my clothes anyway. Next thing I know I’m being restrained by the ward manager and a nurse and the ward manager got right in my face and screamed “pack your stuff and get out of my fucking ward!”
She then got loads of staff to literally throw my belongings into black bin liners and told me to leave. My parents came up and said I wasn’t stable enough to leave and should do it slowly but they weren’t having any of it and said no matter how ill I became I wouldn’t be welcome back again.
So my parents took me home. I was discharged with no meds, no support from the crisis team, a care coordinator that only works Mondays and Fridays, and no follow up care. My depot injection is due today and I’ve tried ringing the mental health team and my GP but no one is returning my calls. I’ve been without meds for 2 days and I’m withdrawing badly from venlafaxine but the earliest I can get some is today, if I can see my GP.
I can hear voices still and they’re so frightening, they’re telling me to do horrible things. I’m not ready to be at home or be without meds but I don’t have a choice. I feel really unstable and like I might do something to hurt myself but no one cares.
I don’t know what to do now.