It's been a while since I posted but after a 4.5 month long stay in hospital I am finally home and discharged from my section 3. I have to go back one more time to get discharged from the hospital but otherwise I'm home for good.
But I'm not doing well. I'm not psychotic anymore, but they diagnosed me with psychotic depression, obsessive compulsive personality disorder and emotionally unstable personality disorder. I dispute the last one, I don't have mood swings, my mood is low all the time.
We went to court and I got 3 days per week supervised access with my kids, but on the days I don't have them I just stay in bed all day. My mood is too low to get up and I'm exhausted from all my meds. I just watch tv or sleep, or scan through Facebook. I have no friends and no money, I haven't paid my mortgage this month.
I really feel the depression kicking my butt at the moment and being totally alone and isolated doesn't help. I made friends in hospital but they're still there and I'm here, alone. I half feel like asking to go back to hospital but I don't want to let down my kids.
Thanks for reading, I hope you're all ok. Xx