I guess I'm just in my over thinking mode and need some positive feedback to ease my mind. I'm currently 15 weeks pregnant almost half way trying to stay as calm as possible. I'm currently on seroquel 200mg. Which is keeping me pretty sane I haven't had any episodes. I wish I was on this medicine from the start I was on Latuda for a year and would hear voices occasionally while falling asleep only. Now I don't experience it at all. I've gotten over my fear of sleeping alone away from my son. I guess I've come a long way. I still have unsettling feelings and intrusive thoughts. One thing I'm struggling with is looking at my son while he sleeps it makes me feel like he's dead and I have killed him. Sorry for the tmi. And sometimes when alone I think am I crazy and some one needs to be with me to assure that I'm not. But that's only sometimes. But roughly I'm pretty happy with how far I've come. My fear that I have had sense finding out that I'm pregnant is im going to have 2 babies with the worry I might hurt them and it's very sad to feel this way. I look at my son and feel a lot of guilt for the feelings images and scary thoughts I used to have and I could cry. I just want both my babies to be safe and it's really sad to sometimes feel that's not with me. Sometimes I think how could I get psychosis again while on this medicine and watching out for signs and symptoms and being prepared. And it seems silly to worry about it but when I get to far into the thoughts it's hard to be positive and say nothing will happen. I never lost touch of reality which should ease my mind that I won't lose touch of reality cause I'm being treated for this. But I guess all I have to do is think about going through the same thing and wonder if I do will this medicine not work in keeping it at bay where I don't lose touch of reality this time. I guess I just need some positive thoughts to make me feel better.