A bit stressed at the moment!
I have been thinking about my episode of PP a lot recently. My episode of PP was the day before New Years Eve 2012. I new that something was not right a few days before Christmas, but keeped telling my self if I got some sleep I would be okay. The PP did not start until My son was 9 months old. In previous years we have always taken it in turns to do Christmas dinner between me and my Sister in law. in 2012 it was my turn to do the dinner. I really do not know how I managed the dinner that year. At this time my mind was racing and it was difficult to concentrate on one thing at a time.
Christmas 2014 was my turn again to do the cooking. Leading up to Christmas my mother in law told me the she was having an operation on her shoulder and it would take around 6 weeks to recover an her operation was 2 weeks before Christmas.
In the next conversation with me she asked if I wanted her to do Christmas Dinner. I was so up set at the time that she asked me this. It was as if I could not cook a meal without getting ill in here eyes. Although I went back to work in the March of 2013 and cook Sunday Dinner most weeks.
This made me think of how people Jude me sine PP. It also made me think how Friends and family treated me at the time. Looking back not many of them treated me in same way you would if you were in hospital for say an operation. None of my in laws even sent a simple text message sending their thoughts. I think I would have been treated differently if my episode had happened a week after the birth of my son and I was in a mother and baby unit not a mental health unit. I do understand it is difficult when you don't understand mental health. At the time I found this difficult and it was this website helped me and my husband understand what had happened.
I have also made the decision not to have any more children resently. As I decided it would not be fare on my son if I was to have a relapse. I definitely would have had another child if it was not for the PP. Every time I see someone pregnant or holding a new born I get so upset now.
I just had to share this with people who understand and might have gone through similar issues.