I am having bereavement counselling and wellbeing counselling but fiind most of the time I cannot say anything and just sit there and cry.
Before I went to my last bereavement session I decided to write everything down and give her the bit of paper. That way at least she knew how I was feeling.
I don't feel lonely, I do feel suicidal because I know that whilst my husband is not here I will never be able to accept him not walking back through that door. Sounds really stupid doesn't it. I feel like a child hiding behind my hands and hoping nobody can see me.