Buried

[Ellamaye]

Why some days does it all come piling ontop of you? Everyone having a go at the same time? Is it pick on me day? Sure feels like it. I've not cried in so long and today that dryspell ended.

[Vonus5591]

why they picking on you?

[Ellamaye in reply to Vonus5591]

Maybe everything I do is wrong and I'm a terrible person?

[Hidden in reply to Ellamaye]

I doubt that, you're here and that's good!🤗

[Turnipgirl in reply to Ellamaye]

It drives me crackers as well when I am doing my very best and everything I attempt is wrong as well!

As long as I know I'm giving things my very best then there's nothing more I can do about it!

[Hidden in reply to Turnipgirl]

Yes, and that's all anybody should expect of you.😉

[Turnipgirl in reply to Ellamaye]

Here's another story of everything I do being wrong!At a previous job I had decided for health reasons and to save money on buying lunch out every day I would bring my own food to work and heat it up in the work microwave!

One morning I had filled my bag up with healthy lunches with lots of fruit and veg and got shouted at up the corridor by another member of staff you have enough food in that bag to feed an army and I was absolutely furious and asked her whys that any of your business what I do or don't do?

If I was dining out everyday there that would have been wrong as well but with all due respect its none of their business where I eat or don't eat!

It's to do with the insecurities of those who do this rather than those it's directed at and its not the stupid thing in itself that causes them to lash out its usually because they are jealous that motivates them!

[Ellamaye in reply to Turnipgirl]

Your response actually struck a chord with me. I live and let live and have no problems or opinions on what others choose to do. Obviously simple things like what they eating or wearing lol. If they chose to beat thier child in the street I'd have a problem with it. But basically what others do is non of my goddam business. So why do people think they can comment or pull people up about stuff? Leave us alone and live your own life 🤣

[Turnipgirl in reply to Ellamaye]

Point is they should get their own life then they wouldn't need to interfere in someone else's!

[Agora1]

Ellamaye, would you like to talk about it and maybe lighten the load?

You are not alone, we're here to listen. xx

[Ellamaye in reply to Agora1]

Thankyou I think it's just one of those days and things are getting to me.

[Agora1 in reply to Ellamaye]

I totally understand Ellamaye..Wishing you better moments tonight. xx

[Hidden]

Hello Ellameye it's good to cry let it out but I'm.sorry you have been upset, I'm sure after a good sleep things will seem much better new start new day, sending a hug, and if there's any particular things you want to mention that we're said that upset you I'll try and help, I'll check back later, hugs 🤗💛🌻

[Ellamaye in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou x I'm not sure that it will all be OK tomorrow though one of the problems is a disagreement with my best friend and we can't seem to resolve the situation I think I'm right she thinks she's right and usually I give up and say its me but I don't want to this time. I feel like people take my laid back self for something that it isn't. I get upset too I just hide it or tell you guys.

[Hidden in reply to Ellamaye]

I understand that I had similar incident with my friend known since 4 I knew I was in the right my mam and family and other friends agreed, it was a conversation on watsap and I never got back to her as it was getting heated I just left it, a few days passed then was going to ask how her grandaughter was she messaged me first our psychic link and nothing was said about the thing we were disagreeing on it was like we silently agreed to disagree rather than spoil the life long friendship, I kind of blame her hormones I'm on HRt so not too bad,can you say it's not worth falling out over so let's agree to disagree 😊

[Ellamaye in reply to Hidden]

Your right and that's what usually happens with us or I say sorry. I love her so much its just this time I wanted to be the one who didn't have to say sorry. That's not working out so well for me so far but fingers crossed x

[Hidden in reply to Ellamaye]

I've said sorry before to people and regretted it just to keep the peace, and even tho it fades in time it's not nice that we couldn't get the sorry that we deserved, but I guess rather than make ourselves ill over it we just have to let it go and have faith that in time we will be vindicated so to speak, and be proud of ourselves for been the ones that ultimately kept the peace 😇I'll say night night as I'm tiredout pixie got me up at 4.3o sorry I can't give you a magic solution, I'm sure if a tidal wave came and swept us all to sea we'd be feeling totally different about everything in life in general 💛✨🌟

[Ellamaye in reply to Hidden]

No magic solution but the support means alot so goodnight God bless xx

[Pitbullgirl in reply to Ellamaye]

I so understood what you’re feeling. I have had a terrible falling out with my best friend of 7 years. Won’t get into details, but basically she is not the person I thought she was and has been lying for years and using people including myself. Yet, despite the betrayal and disappointment, I still love her and miss our time together. The whole experience has caused me physical and mental distress to the point I’ve lost almost 20 pounds. However, I’m finally coming out of the dark hole and realizing I don’t need her to be happy and it’s foolish to keep repeating the forgive and relive scenario. I assure you things will get better over time. Whether you choose to continue the friendship or not, please speak your truth, take accountability where needed, and don’t allow her to lay guilt that shouldn’t be. You are stronger than you think and you matter!

[Ellamaye in reply to Pitbullgirl]

Aw thankyou for that x I love your HU name by the way. Very cool 😎. My anxiety does make me question myself and my behaviour so sometimes I do just think everyone else must be right if they say I've done something wrong. That is a long friendship that you walked away from so you must have been sure of your reasons and lying and stuff for years must have really hurt you x I'm sorry for that. I've experienced major betrayal by very close people and at my age I don't want to have to lose anyone else from my life . Its just still hard to navigate this stuff 😪. I don't want to be all alone in this life and I never want to treat people like they're disposable, because that's how I've felt in the past and it's the absolute worst feeling.

[Ellamaye in reply to Hidden]

Last message from me was this message stuff is getting us nowhere I'll speak to you when I see you. No reply from that

[Hidden in reply to Ellamaye]

I know it's hard but best try distract from it your friends probably pondering on it as didn't get the usual sorry she usually does let me know the outcome 🙏🤗why don't you read through lady zens post about weekend,take your mind of it 💛

[Ellamaye in reply to Hidden]

I will I love zens posts so good idea x thanks x

[Hidden in reply to Ellamaye]

National women's day was good too 😁

[Turnipgirl in reply to Hidden]

On Wednesday afternoon we had just finished a nice day out at the Fort and the carvery pub and I was getting ready to go home back across the city from west to east and a missed call appeared on my phone and I wasn't happy about it and it brought everything back from last year when I was being evicted and I had sworn what do they f ing well want and my emotions went haywire all because of that!

More than likely it was something and nothing as they haven't tried to ring be back or anything as if it really was important they would have left a message!

It's amazing how silly things like that can upset people so much!

[Turnipgirl]

There was one day back in 2022 just after I had lost a job that things piled up and I became angry and frustrated!

Firstly what kicked it off was I had been told that no I wasn't getting a property I had set my heart on that I had gone to view the previous day and I had become ever so upset!

Then I had seen another property I fancied and had rung up to enquire and they had tried to fob me off not giving straight answers to simple questions and I had shouted at them down the phone I asked you a question in sheer anger and frustration after I had received the I will ring you line which really gets on my nerves as no they won't ring you its lies to shut you up and fob you off!

Nowadays I'm glad I never got those places when I look back as I don't feel I would have been happy there but at the time when these setbacks strike they feel like the end of the world!

[Ellamaye in reply to Turnipgirl]

Yes the end of the world is the way it feels at the time x thankyou for perspective though your right when you look back its not usually that bad x

[dmt1121]

I think we all have those days. It's important to remember that "this too shall pass". Just find something calming and soothing to do for yourself and to unload the pile of worries or responsibilities, just for even a short while.

[Ellamaye in reply to dmt1121]

Aw that's my go to mantra... it will pass.... then its for fucks sake pass will you 🤣