I just wanted to quickly say that I'm feeling better today and it's definitely due in part to the wonderful welcome and kind kind words from so many of you. I'm really very glad to have found this place. Thank you all!
Course it's not all sunshine, I'm getting pretty consistently good at being exceptionally dumb in meetings. Saying nothing is not an option, but every time I open my mouth, poorly articulated stupid stuff comes out. I can just see everyone thinking "now THAT was obviously dumb". Every time. Sigh. That tends to send me into a spin of worthlessness. I know I need to be more resilient.
Still, I'm doing better today, even if a little crap.
Thanks again, everyone!