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[Colleen143]

Anxiety & Depression, 5x cancer surivor.

In a very non-healthy relationship and feel myself spiraling.

[bridder01]

Hiya Colleen! My name is Brian Would you like to talk about what's going on? We're all here for you to listen and help when we can!

"Courage does not always roar......Sometimes, it is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow'"

A friend,

Brian

[Colleen143 in reply to bridder01]

Hi Brian,

Thanks for reaching out. I don’t even know where/how to begin.

I’ve been with my bf almost two years now. On our very first date I told him that I had been sober for 21 years. You would think, at that point, if he had a problem he would tell me then. It wasn’t until 6 months in that I discovered he was 20 year heroin addict. At the time I found out I was going through surgery and chemo for lung cancer and had just lost my dad.

He’ll get sober for a little while then relapse again. I even saved his life one time. Had to call 911, 2 Narcan doses later...

Too many things have happened since then to even communicate.

Last week, while on vacation with my 16 yo and her friend, he COMPLETELY freaked out at us. Calling us c***s, and attempting to abandon us 1000 miles from home. After an horrific ride with him begging him to calm down and go back, he just kept screaming at me to get out. Back at the house I had hopped on the back of the tailgate. He then proceeded to speed off and stop short in an attempt to throw me off the truck. This continues for what feels like an eternity but was probably about 5 minutes. I was finally able to jump off and walk back to the house. The home owners were knocking on the door, horrified as they heard everything. The two girls were crying hysterically. The mother of my daughter wound up driving the 1000 miles to get her daughter then turned around and drove home.

There’s even more since then....

I am so depressed and filled with anxiety.

[Colleen143 in reply to Colleen143]

*The mother of my daughter’s friend...

[bridder01 in reply to Colleen143]

I am so so sorry Colleen. What he did was unforgivable. No one deserves to be treated that way. But don't worry, you're not alone. I am here if you need to talk. You don't need someone like that in your life. You need to surround yourself with people who care for you and want to support you. Keep reaching out.....I promise you've got a friend in me if you'd like one

Brian

[Colleen143 in reply to bridder01]

Thank you, Brian. I truly appreciate it. I’m feeling pretty overwhelmed right now having said all of that. I think I’m going to try to calm down now and rest.

~ Colleen

[bridder01 in reply to Colleen143]

Take your time Colleen. If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you

[Marshall64]

Are you and your daughter in a safe place?

[Colleen143 in reply to Marshall64]

All three of us are back home, Marshall.