Brokenat21.

This is one of those days that the crack is very hard to crawl out from.

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I am just having a bad day. It just seems like a never ending cycle of Doctors and prescriptions that never really fixes anything. Somedays are better than others. I just don't want to accept that I have to just deal with pain the rest of my life. I should have realized there was a problem years ago with this back surgery that afterward the body cast I was in so that I could only lay down or stand up for 11 months. Then when it came off I really believed I could sit down. Here 30 years later when there is no position that doesn't hurt and it is depressing but I am not suppose to be depressed because that is a problem I am not suppose to have. Do I treat the pain that I am told to just live with or the depression because of the pain or both? Maybe I should just be ashamed and treat neither. Where do I go from here?

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Yes. I am now 60. I broke my back ar 21. I went back to work after the first surgery and just laid down or stood up for 20 years until I just broke mentally because I couldn't push it to the back of my mind any more. I have tried everything the many doctors prescribed for the last 10 years. I don't sit and cry any more so I guess that is an improvement. I know it is an improvement but it can all change so fast and that is the sad part. Thank you for asking and listening. It helps to just unload sometimes.

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That sounds like a terribly difficult things to deal with. I can't imagine having that kind of physical pain. Have you doctors treated the depression or focused on your physical symptoms?

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People that care enough to say something back to a stranger is sometimes all that is needed to keep me from an otherwise gloomy existence. So yes you did do something. You answered.