I'm a newbie. I am 53, fit, a runner, non smoker, non drinker (boring so and so) who was diagnosed with AF (flutter on admission to hospital - with some fibrillation later) in July 2015. I had a second episode on the 25 August. My heart reverted to SR on its own on both occasions. So why the note?
Well, I'm not really coping terribly well and I want someone to do what my mum would have - and tell me it'll all be alright.
Seriously, I've really struggled with the psychology of this thing, not least because I'm a writer and I found the betablockers I was first put on (bisoprolol) horribly invasive, making me feel like I was seeing everything through a thick block of glass. After this I tried diltiazem which was better but in time wrecked my tummy and then amiodarone which made me feel DREADFUL.
My consultant has suggested I get on the list for an ablation as this is my best chance to find a solution drugs free.
Currently I'm on rivaroxaban and that's it - which scares me a bit in case I have another episode - but which means I'm getting minimal thought disturbance at least. That said I feel far from myself - tired and headachy - but I wonder if this is another sign of the anxiety which grips me.
SO - THE ACTUAL QUESTION-
Have others struggled emotionally on getting diagnosed (I keep crying)? And have they got over it? What did they try? CBT? Shrink?
And will I ever be in a situation where I can run and play tennis again? Currently, I feel far too tired and a bit like I've been dragged through a hedge backwards, to do anything. More stress? On top of this, my brain feels turgid still and rather prosaic. Again, could that be worry?
Sorry to be so needy in my first post but at times I've felt on the brink of utter panic as I've wondered how to get any kind of toe hold as I slide down what feels like a sheer cliff face!