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Anyone feel like a time bomb...lol

Going for my 3rd ablation next week! I thought I had it all under control then this week I am just so emotional. I feel like a bundle of nerves, I don't feel anxious about the surgery. I started on Xarelto just 2 weeks ago and the beta blocker bisoprolol 4 weeks ago. I don't know if this is why I'm feeling like this. I also feel depressed....I know !'m an emotional basket case. Lol

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meadfoot profile image
meadfoot

Your reaction is normal, this is a trying condition and easily takes us over so don't think your thoughts are unusual. It's a trying time but you will get through it and life will stabalised again.

Good luck keep your chin up things will improve, you have a forward plan of action so that is very good.

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Clareowenpearcy in reply to meadfoot

Thank you! Just not used to feeling so low😰

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pottypete1

I have had AF for many years and in recent years had a number of ablations and have an ablation for Atrial Tachycardia planned for a week Tuesday.

I agree that AF causes a roller coaster of emotions and I have felt doom and gloom on numerous occasions with no clear reason why whenever it happens.

All I know is that our EPs are trying the best to help us and we must trust their judgment.

Addition ablations are designed to tidy up the previous work and in many cases lead to a successful outcome they wouldn't waste their time doing it if there was no chance making a difference.

Try and take each day as it comes and do your best to say to yourself "I will not let this pesky AF ruin my life".

Pete

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Clareowenpearcy in reply to pottypete1

Thank you! Just knowing I'm not alone in my feelings makes such a big difference.😄

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jeanjeannie50

I remember that feeling from when I had my third ablation last July. It was an emotional drain and a feeling of despair waiting for the day to come.

I must say though that my third one was far more successful and I recovered very quickly afterwards. I'm sure you will be the same. What's the saying,' third time lucky'.

Wishing you success.

Jean

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Clareowenpearcy in reply to jeanjeannie50

Thank you! Yes, just want this roller coaster ride over with.

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Tonicrosby

That's to bad. Sorry hope all went well.

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AnneTS

Hi Clare. First of all good luck with 3rd ablation. My third was a better deal success-wise than the first two so go forth with hope!! I am surprised that there aren't more posts on the psychological effects of both having AF and the treatment we undergo for it. The stress of having AF, even if we can keep a psychological lid on both the AF and the treatment is very real as is the attendant depression of not being able to be the person we were before AF. Hang in there, you are not alone and we are all rooting for you.

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Clareowenpearcy in reply to AnneTS

Thank you! I was really thinking it was unusual to be so emotional and down. I'm a type A personality, I'm used to just running with it and not letting it bother me. Outwardly I'm in control & as strong as ever but internally I'm a basket case

right now.

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KathFrances

So glad to read all these posts about the emotional side. Yes, I feel like a walking time bomb, about to go off if I bend forward too fast, lift something a bit too heavy, walk up the stairs too quickly, the temperature goes up . . . It feels like a constant, heavy burden. And can life ever be relaxed and easy again? I'm sorry other people have similar feelings, but reassured that I'm not alone with them. It's good to hear it's possible to get through the despair, depression stage and come out the other side.

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pottypete1 in reply to KathFrances

I had an AF ablation in March.

4 weeks ago the sinus rhythm I had enjoyed for about 10 weeks converted to Atrial Tachycardia.

I have now been in permanent Atrial Tachycardia since then.

After the first week when I felt awful I somehow got used to it and mentally have felt a lot better than I have been for so many years with PAF.

I am having an Ablation Tuesday 4th July to hopefully sort me.

It is undoubtedly an emotional roller coaster.

The forum is so helpful to so many.

Pete

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Clareowenpearcy in reply to KathFrances

I'm sorry to hear your feeling the same! It's just so hard to understand this side of Afib.

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Clareowenpearcy in reply to KathFrances

The depression and defeated feelings are bothering me more than the Afib. Listening to everyone else its good to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. 😄

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Clareowenpearcy in reply to KathFrances

Yes, it's reassuring to know we're not alone in our feelings. The emotional side is not discussed very much and you do feel alone in your thoughts and emotions for sure. This is the first time I have been effected this way

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cbsrbpm

I know exactly what you mean, I am now in persistent AF/Tachycardia and some days feel really down and depressed and find it very difficult to claw my way back up. Another day I will feel completely gung ho about it all and just get on with life. Your not a basket case it is perfectly normal, dealing with AF is like a roller coaster don't beat yourself up. Try to keep occupied until your ablation and focus on being well again. Good luck.

Brenda🐝

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Clareowenpearcy in reply to cbsrbpm

Yes, it's just the constant not knowing! One minute I'm fine the next I'm so off the rails. Very irritable & short tempered too.

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Rubyladyemerald

I had My fourth ablation back in May. I was very angry becaus I had not had an AF attach in seven years. Then on the 14th I went in and had to have an AV node ablation. I'm paced at 90 for now and I am a big mess. I want to cry but cant because now I'm afraid I will send myself into more trouble. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

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Clareowenpearcy in reply to Rubyladyemerald

Thank you! It's been almost 7 years for me too. My last ablation was September 2010. I'm so tired, that's my first clue it's time to do something again. The actual Afib (racing all the time) I cope with ok. It's everything else that comes with it for me that finally does me in emotionally.

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Rubyladyemerald in reply to Clareowenpearcy

Do you have a implanted defibrillator? I don't mind my heart racing either. For the longest time I had wished my husband had left me on the shop floor. I hated all the surgeries and meds. The days when I was too tired to get a thing done around the house. The frustration my husband felt and showed because I can't do what he expects.

Here during this past week I have wanted to cry what's left of my heart out because of it. But......until they slow my pace rate some I have to hold it in because I'm afraid to go back into the hospital. I don't want anymore surgery.

So I send you lots of hugs, good thoughts and prayers.

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Clareowenpearcy in reply to Rubyladyemerald

Hope you are feeling better this week😘

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Clareowenpearcy

Awe, thank you! No, no devices here. My spouse is also driving me crazy, so used to me doing everything and being so independent. This feeling of doom is the worst. I haven't had feelings like this before! I don't know if it's because I'm getting older or what. I feel very alone this time around, maybe because I have always taken everything in my stride and bounced back from surgery so quickly previously. Also I have verbalized my feelings this time and I don't think family & friends know how to react. Afib is very common , I get the feeling I should just be quiet and get on with it like I

was able to before.

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