Was lucky to get an appointment yesterday with another lady GP, whom I've seen before, and I feel confident with. My anxiety seems to have gone through the roof, and I'm not sleeping, due to worrying about my heart palpations/flutters/missed beats. She asked me if I had symptoms before the anxiety, and I can't exactly remember to be honest, because I have suffered from anxiety on and off throughout my life. She's prescribed me medication for the anxiety, and although I don't like taking antidepressants, feel I need them at the moment. I have an appointment with my own GP on the 16th, although I don't have a lot of faith in him. I got the Kardia heart monitor yesterday and I've been using it since last night, most of the ecgs up to now have been ok, except for 2 which said possibly AFib, my heart rate was 62 and 56 on those recordings, this was about 4am in the morning. Doctor said yesterday that my BP and pulse were normal. I seem to feel these sensations in my stomach area and not the heart area. My stomach is very sensitive to anxiety. I have another appointment with the lady GP on 19th. I'm going to keep both appointments. I asked her if she could tell whether the other GP had referred me to the hospital like I asked, but she couldn't tell me that. I thought everything was put on your records on the computer, obviously not.
I'm away on holiday in mid January for 10 days and I really want to try enjoy my holiday, but at the moment I don't feel I want to go because I feel fearful. My husband thinks I'm overreacting and my anxiety is probably causing it all, but he's not feeling what I'm feeling. I go swimming 4 times a week and do Pilates twice a week. He says I'm probably doing too much, but I do enjoy it, as it makes me feel better. I feel a nervous wreck and miserable at the moment.
It's good to be able share here with people that understand as I don't feel I can tell anyone. Thanks for reading and Look forward to any advice as I know you all pretty genned up and wise people.