Update: Carbo/Etoposide for Dad’s Liver Mets

[antisocialsocialwrkr]

My dad has his 6th round of Carbo/Etoposide next week. The last 2 rounds have been very difficult on my dad. We thought he was lucky in the beginning as the side effects were manageable and attributed it to my dad being young and previously very active. It’s definitely true that chemo is cumulative. The nausea has been the worst symptom and he will randomly vomit up to 5-6 days after receiving the chemo. He doesn’t want to listen to me or my mom about maintaining a schedule of nausea meds. He takes them here and there. He is so motivated to keep working (from home) and I think he wants to remain clear headed as possible since some of the meds make him foggy, even THC. I do understand because his work gives him purpose. Either way, feels like a double edged sword and I know he is doing the best he can.

After this round, he’ll have a second scan to check on progress. I posted previously that the first scan after 3 chemo rounds showed the liver nodules had shrunk. It sucks because we’ve been told that even if they shrink or go away completely, because it’s neuroendocrine, the cancer will always return and at a more aggressive rate.

Anyway, if you’re the praying type, please say a prayer for my dad, Mark, and the rest of my family as his next scan comes in September. I try to pray but I’m angry with God and I’m allowed to be. I know people say God doesn’t cause bad events or situations but if he’s all powerful, seems like he could intervene. Or does God only grant miracles to certain people…if so, seems selfish! My dad could use one and he’s the best man I know. Done ranting.

Thanks everyone and wishing you all the best.

[Tall_Allen]

You might relate to the play "The Trial of God" by Elie Weisel.

amazon.com/Trial-God-held-F...

[antisocialsocialwrkr in reply to Tall_Allen]

I just looked it up and it sent me down a rabbit hole. Wow - definitely relate. Apparently he reconciled with God. Maybe I will too but for now, I have a “wounded faith,” just like he did. Thanks for sharing.

[j-o-h-n]

Of course it's natural to be angry at God. Your dear Dad is only 53 years old and you want him around with you and the family for many many years. I've been Angry with the guy upstairs many times in my 86 years here on earth and lived through them. There is no harm in the way you feel, it's because you love your Father and of course he loves you.

Your Dad is a typical male..... burying himself in anything but his health. So He's working as if he was an ostrich with his head buried in he sand. I and I hope other members will pray that your Father hits the lotto that all is medical issues fade away....

Good Luck, Good Health and Good Humor.

j-o-h-n Tuesday 08/29/2023 5:57 PM DST

[antisocialsocialwrkr in reply to j-o-h-n]

I guess the tough part is that this anger is deep. It doesn’t feel temporary but yet, I feel like He is all I have. And if He is all I have then why would I want a silent, passive God at all? Quite the paradox. Thanks for sharing.

[FormulaRob]

If God exists, then he definitely has his favorites and I ain't one of them LOL.

[Daddyishealing]

Just want you to know the things you are scared for your dad to do like I was petrified bc of covid and my dad never got covid and im so glad he loved while alive . Your dad sounds similar and willfully and that is what will help him survive . As fir the nausea meds they took have cumulative effects and my dad was the same he refused to take everything and he maintained his brain by doing so until the very end . The nausea med is constipating and magnesium I'd give him with it when he chooses to take it .