If you followed my recent post, you'll remember that I was ecstatic to have had a consultation with the team at Royal Marsden Cancer Clinic, where I was told that my PET scan of June, my PSA of June (4.4) and my overall good health meant that they felt I needed nothing more than dexamethasone and there was no rush to treat with anything stronger - certainly not the chemo that I was fearing.
Last week I had an MRI scan at RM and I was called yesterday to say that the earlier PET scan hadn't shown a small 'spot' on my liver. On top of that, a sudden doubling of my PSA means that I have an urgent consultation on Wednesday, and I've been told that chemo is now a matter of urgency.
So, within a month, I've gone from 'your life is not in danger from this cancer' to full-scale panic. Needless to say, I've been knocked sideways and now all the 'putting your affairs in order' scenarios have come back to the fore.
I know that many of you have had good experiences with chemo, so I'd like to get into a positive mindset. My belief is that, while my overall health is relatively good, I'd like to treat what appears to be a newly aggressive cancer with an effective counter-attack. To that end, I have a few questions and would welcome your experiences:
1. Is there a difference in efficacy between oral chemo vs infusions?
2. What kind of side effects can I expect? (I know that everyone responds differently) Should I, for example, cancel work trips to Portugal and Australia in the coming months?
3. Are there adjuvant therapies that would, for example, attack the liver spot, or get the tumour load significantly lower?
4. Is there any truth in the myth that my immune system will suffer as a result of chemo?
5. I experienced some urine blood this weekend. I've been told that the prostate is pushing against the bladder wall and causing UTI-like symptoms. Is chemo likely to relieve that?
Any advice you veterans can offer at this stage is gratefully appreciated. I need to feel hopeful at this point, more than anything.
Love to everyone fighting this insidious disease.