Just got back

[Cisco99]

from 5 days in hospital. Cancer is aggressive around my bet. Doing lots of morphine. Interesting conversation with my onco. Very tired, may be back in the morning.

[depotdoug]

5 days in ICU. Wow, does sound not so good but so so glad you updated us. Cancer is where? ‘bet’. Now can’t wait till your interesting ONC visit conversation.

Rest as best you can tonight tomorrow my friend...

[jmurgia in reply to depotdoug]

Based on his previous posts, I think he meant "belt".

[Cisco99 in reply to depotdoug]

I'm back home. Friends who are nurses are each watching me in 6 hour shifts. Pain is around waist. First chemo round survived -- but it was challenging. I am told to get my affairs in order "but no hurry."

Lots of pain, shakiness, imbalance. My "logic" has returned.

[Joes-dad]

Oh no... so sorry to hear that. Let us know what's going on when you can. Your friends are just a message away...

[Hidden]

Welcome back home. Getting out of the hospital is a good day .. sorry you’re going thru this .. Be well Cisco!

[Schwah]

Sorry to hear Brutha. You’ll always get good honest advise here. Not sure what “bet” is tho? And even tho it can be a little dark at times, i do kinda miss your poetry Cisco. How about a new one for the gang?

Schwah

[Haniff]

Take care and rest well.

Haniff

[Kaliber]

Welcome back home buddy ... you got this

💪💪💪 👍👍😁

[Cisco99 in reply to Kaliber]

Unfortunately! Thanks.

[erjlg3]

Ohhhhh Cisco.... Im so sorry. You keep fighting!! So glad you let us know. Hopin wishin prayin for you to get well.

Most sincere,

🌻Jackie

[Hidden in reply to erjlg3]

🙏❤️

[Danielgreer]

Hey Cisco, hoping for the best for you! Hang in there!

[siouxbee19]

My thoughts and prayers are with you...🙏❤️

[BrentW]

I have no idea what to write. "Take care" seems so vapid, "Best wishes" so ambivalent, and "Good luck" just downright stupid. Try this: May the probabilities be with you, Cisco.

[Cisco99]

For future reference, I like -- "Courage, friend." "Be strong man." "Think about good things." "Stay curious" also works a bit -- it's better in person. You embrace, maybe shed a tear. Maybe "We're counting on you." Stuff like that.

Not criticizing, just -- I've been through this before. Important thing is that I don't scare or discourage YOU.

[Hidden in reply to Cisco99]

Courage friend!

[Cisco99 in reply to Hidden]

Here's what I have come up with. Since I was diagnosed, I have entertained the idea of suicide, to "outsmart" the cancer. Not from despair, but from a kind of practical convenience. Save money, etc.

But I'm working on an approach to seeing it through.

My daughter took her life, because she was in such mental pain. I don't ordinarily correct her, but I'm the dad. Maybe I'll see it through because I'm an adult. Life should be lived through to the extent possible. Seems like it would be good karma.

[Hidden in reply to Cisco99]

I can’t imagine how that felt to lose her like that. I have a friend who dad came home one day and blew his head off in the family home. It hurts those left behind. Ride this MF for all it’s worth . I’m glad that you’re home and not in the hospital... Scott

[addicted2cycling]

CRAP. Hoping the best 4 U.

[safari1]

Definitely admire your courage. Thank you for sharing with us, helps motivate. Science is changing daily hang in there

[Blueslover]

Prayers to you brother

[Hidden]

Thank you for helping us all on this very rough ride. You have made a difference for many. 😊