I have received quite a few replies following my posts about stopping treatment. I have since deleted the post while trying to delete the picture that accompanied it, that was a mistake.
Thank you all for the positive and warm replies to my post. I realize that stopping treatment is not something that most do however that is what I want to do and we shall see what happens. Being 81 I can say that my life has been an "E Ticket" (for those who remember the old Disneyland tickets, E was the best) I have no complaints and if PCA does me in then all I ask is some good pain meds which my doctor has assured me he will take care of. My wife who is 23 years younger than me will go on and hopefully have a good life. She has and is a wonderful caregiver who only occasionally slips into a blue mood but is supportive of my decisions.
For IT Candy who wrote that I looked great for 81 I must admit the pic is about five years old or so but in fact I do look okay and I think that can fool people sometime.
After only four days off of Casodex and no new Lupron shot I can feel my head clearing and some indications of my old self coming back. If I can have an "old self" for a few months I'm a happy camper.
Once again, this is a special place and I thank you all. Stay tuned.....:))