I have thought long and hard about posting here out of potential disrespect for those diagnosed, but I am at a loss to know what to do next, so here goes...
In mid-October of 2017 I was dropping my daughter at school in the car. I parked the car, made sure it was safe to get out and as I turned to exit the car I felt a muscle go on my lower back, right hand side. I lived with the pain for a few weeks as I have had lower back problems in the past. The initial pain went and I was left with dull pain, but persistent. I spent November and December using an Osteopath with no change of symptoms after religiously doing all and more of the exercises prescribed.
I am naturally an anxious person and Googled about Chronic back pain and read about PCa, I then recalled being caught out a few times in the car and walking to work needing to urinate urgently, not every day but the seed started to grow.
I went to my GP in panic mode and announced I thought I had Advanced PCa, I was given two DRE's (by two separate GPS’s) , Urine test and bloods were taken two days later. These came back a couple of days later and I was told the only thing that flagged up was my Thyroid, clinically underactive and to take another test within the next few weeks. My PSA was 0.04 and (should have mentioned earlier) I am due to be 48 in May this year.
I have since discussed my Urination more with my GP and said how often I go, up to 8 times a day, no Nocturia, with occasional urgency. But I fear I have become hyper sensitive to my bladder and think that there is a possibility I have skewed what I think is normal and bladder habits have changed due to anxiety and over analysing (I hope this makes sense).
Meanwhile I have been passed to a second GP at the practice who has assured me, like the previous one did that they thought the 5 months of back pain was normal mechanical back pain and the urination is also normal. He took the time to go over my results and try to reassure me, but this only lasts minutes until out of the surgery and the wheels start to turn again.
My work has been very good about stuff so far, my partner thinks I am OK as she knows how I operate with anxiety. I have had waking insomnia for two months now, basically waking at between 2 and 3 am and tossing and turning till dawn, I am feeling muscular sensations I haven't had before, weakness, fatigue, stabbing pains in muscles, hip bone pain, popping and cracking of all my joints, including crepitus in my right knee which I am pretty sure I never had before, the bones in my neck crack all the time. There is a lot of "stuff" going on. I know some of this can be attributed to the anxiety and sleep deprivation, but I have never had a back problem last more than a couple of months, and it doesn't feel like anything I have had before. The GP has me on Physio and I have had two sessions already, but again there's no change at all.
I am terrified I have been overlooked because of my age and no family history/ethnicity issues. But I am now left with little else to do, my GP said a further PSA test would make me even more anxious if it were even slightly higher, and gave me the "you could be run over by a bus tomorrow" anecdote, and prescribed Citalopram for anxiety. I think most of my fear is fuelled by the unreliable nature of the PSA test and I have read so many stories here of guys my age (and under).
Again, I really hope don't rustle any feathers here, I’ve read a lot of your stories and am in awe of the courage and determination you all have, so thanks for listening.
What would you do?