Found my tribe...

[Rakiura74]

Hello everyone,

I am new here, 48 years, I have been battling depression all my life with several episodes, starting at 13 years old, and struggling so much through school time.

I managed to finish my degree at university, but then spend most time afterwards caring for my 3 kids.

Being a mom is the most beautiful thing and a nightmare at the same time... I have 2 teenagers now and we are having horrible fights almost daily. With my emotional instability, RSD and ADD and them being teenagers with most likely ADD as well, its a horrible combination.

I feel like my brain didn't get a rest since my first was born...

I tried many different medication, on and off of Antidepressants, tried Medikinet, which helped at first, but then made me horribly nervous and didn't do much good.

I am now trying Elvanse and my first day went, oh well... mixed. I couldn't eat much, which I don't mind as I gained almost 10kg in the last year. My mind felt somehow distant, but it could also be the aftermath of yesterdays horrible fight I had with my daughter and then my husband.

I feel that no one understands what's going on and it’s such a lonely place to be..

That is, until I read a few posts here. It seems that many of you have the same issues. I am happy to have found this website.

[TonsOfPlans-but]

After finding this page today, yours was the first post I read and it motivated me to create an account. Thank you and you are not alone!

[FindingTheAnswers]

Hi and Wellcome. You definatly have your hands full with all that you've got going on. You'll find many Posts here about people trying to find the right Rx that works for them. Often it's a lot of trial and error.

When you said "I feel that no one understands what's going on and its such a lonely place to be" So true. So very true. Hang in there.

[STEM_Dad]

Welcome to the community!

I'm also 48, and only got diagnosed at 45. I struggled with college, but didn't graduate. I can keep a job, but have found it very hard to progress.

My oldest daughter was very difficult to get along with as a teenager, and her doctor now thinks she should get assessed for ADHD. She seemed to experience RSD a lot back then.

I know my second-oldest son has all the same Inattentive traits that I have, and about as bad as me, but despite me and his ADHD girlfriend suggesting he get assessed, he still hasn't.

[Monty89]

welcome to the community Rakiura74. Sounds like you defo have your hands full.

I have recently been diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 33. I totally get what you mean when you say no one understands and it’s a huge journey for you too so don’t be hard on yourself.

How are you finding Elvanse now?

Hope you’re doing ok.