today i had a really bad day

[kirmenmir]

so, i had one of my best friends come over so we can do fun stuff together, i had a bunch of activities to do.

here comes the BUT, my adhd was really bad and i had a lot of mental fog and i couldn’t process anything, like the night before i was so excited because i hadn’t seen my friend in three months, and when he was here i couldn’t feel the excitement or any f***ing emotion, so i didn’t talked to him or did anything fun with him because i just kept staring at the nothingness.

later i realized that happened and i was so frustrated by it.

the worst part is that none of my closest people understand what happens to me and what i have to deal with every day.

if you can relate please reach out so we can talk.

[Oceonica]

Hi Kirmenmir, I'm sorry you had a bad day. You were so excited and prepared but when the time came your plans didn't come through, and you don't feel like you have people to confide it that would understand. That makes it hard, I feel like adhd can complicate relationships with friends, and others. I know I don't communicate very well because of it, even though I try. Maybe if you tell them what happened or apologize they may understand. I feel like I have similar experiences get when people are confused by my behavior or confused when disclosing I have adhd, people don't usually know what that entails. I told a close friend and family member I had it, but they told me the same thing, "Everyone has their own struggles." Which I get that, but I also don't think they understand what I'm struggling with or why I act the way I do in some social situations, and not realizing it in the moment. When there is a silence I feel like the other person must be fine with too, like how I am comfortable in the silence. In hindsight, I realize people thought our interaction was cold. I haven't figured out a convenient way to tell or explain to people what is going on or went on. Sometimes I think it's better to not mention it or pretend I don't have it, which I'm not sure how healthy that is. I feel like we are able to appear adhdless but in a moments notice come off unconventional and are blamed for it. For now I'll just settle with: sorry I wasn't feeling very good, wasn't in a good mindset, sorry for fill in the blank whatever excuse that I come up with. I'm thinking of reading a book on social skills like how to talk to anyone 92 little tricks, mostly for small talk to see what happens... anyways, I don't know how relatable my post is or the point of it but I'd be down to chat about anything really like things others may not understand or things we usually feel unable to disclose. I hope this helps in some way and we can both find routes we can cope and find support.