I cried to the Doctor today. We were at an ADHD follow up and my daughter was bouncing all over the room. This doctor makes her incredibly anxious and she hates how we talk about her. Her ADHD is worse at the doctors and when two adults are talking and she just has to stand there. The Doctor told her to sit down-- either pick a chair or the bench to sit on while we talk. The doctor is pretty stern and my daughter went to climb up on the bench and hit her knee and began crying that she wanted to go home and didn't want to us to keep talking about her. She cried in my arms the rest of the appointment. I also started to cry because she was hurting emotionally.
I think the doctor's appointments and medication trial and errors are killing her self esteem because we haven't found the right medication that doesn't cause terrible side effects that majorly affect her life.
I am picking apart her personality and behaviors constantly and as much as we try to hide, she is starting to become aware as she gets older that she doesn't have the same temperament as other kids.