Hello, this is my first post here so I am a little nervous. Now that we got that out of the way, let me tell you my story.
There is this kid in my high school class (not your traditional high school) that makes me extremely uncomfortable. I do not like him because I went on a camping trip (with my class) and I really needed to use the bathroom. I brought my entire group with me and we walked to the far-away bathroom. To sum it all up, I was forced to play spin the bottle (peer pressure) so I came into the bathroom with everyone and it landed on me first. I tried to run out, but I was held down and kissed by a boy unwillingly. (This doesn’t seem like a big deal, right?) Ever since then, I have been extremely messed up in the head. I’ve never had depression, but it runs in the family. I’ve been experiencing suicidal thoughts and sadness. This only when I am alone and I have a chance to think. My dad battling cancer doesn’t really help with the sadness. I have also been dealing with EXTREME memory and focus problems. For example, (random name) “Alice, take out the trash.” I would either say ok or do something else and immediately forget.
It gets really hard sometimes because nobody thinks I am trying hard enough. I never do any work at school, and if a teacher is talking, I just doodle. I get distracted by every little thing.
Thank you for reading my post and if you get to the bottom, try to leave a comment about any advice, or a diagnosis. (I know, it might not be exact, but every little bit counts).