I tell my loved ones I feel sick. Not because I have a cold, or a stomach ache but because I feel sad. I feel it constantly and deeply. I feel apathetic, self conscious and scared. They try to make me laugh, but even if I do, I don’t think it makes me happier. I feel the need to push through but I dont know which way to look, where to start, or how I feel about moving forward. I’ve lost myself and I all hope that I can be anything better that what I am now. I dont know who to turn to because I am misunderstood, and have been since my happier days. I just want light back in my life.