update

[anniebooty]

First it was the cousin being rude and nasty then it was the sister telling me to go and eat my medication. NOW someone at work who has broke my trust I feel hurt I feel betrayed I feel like he stabbed me in the chest 10x and in the back I thought we got along (but obviously not)

There was a matter that involved the manager then when I over heard what she said on the phone. " I was like mmmmm". Then I went and mentioned it to him etc then he went and told the manager. After that conversation I just wanted to cry etc

THIS WAS THE FINAL STRAW

Then when i got home few hours in through out the night I just couldn't crying i stop then i will go again. Next morning i stopped but i could feel myself wanting to cry again so then I decided to go to the doctors on the bus once again i could feel myself wanting to cry again but I stopped myself (maybe because i was on the bus lol)

I'm Really annoyed with myself that I had to go to the doctors for this. Because I tried soooooo hard in not going in the past was very close at times but I did feel myself doing the same habits so i thought I take myself out of the situation for the time being. I mean I could feel myself wanting to cry i don't think i be any different at work

guess out of frustration I did cut myself on my foot don't remember much but when i got up the next morning. I was like " why is my foot hurting me " lol

when this happened I was shocked and still am and asking myself "am I really that bad of a person that no one respect me there or likes me "

[Hidden]

Hello anniebooty

I am sorry to hear you feel you have been betrayed at work. Clearly this has caused you great stress and upset and you have had difficulty stopping yourself from crying.

Try not to beat yourself up about going to the Doctors. I hope you found your appointment helpful anniebooty.

Have you had a chance to look on youtube at Mindfulness, relaxation, bodyscan etc, the short ones are great to try. I find guided relaxation very useful and try to listen 2-3 times a day. I find they help with my breathing and those times when I have difficulty controlling my emotions.

Anniebooty be mindful who you choose to confide in. You take care and be kind to yourself,

Lottie x

[anniebooty in reply to Hidden]

Hello Lottie

Thank you for replying the one thing I have trouble with is relaxation lol it's either the top or bottom half of my body that feel tense lol bt it's a working progress

xxxx

[Hidden]

Hi sorry you went through that. There are definitely times in my life too (and everyones?) when everything seems to go wrong at once. One person gets upset with me, then another has a go and so on. I have realised that sometimes it's the way I behave when I feel down so catch it early now. It used to be a cycle but now I have managed to interrupt it.

Also I think there are times we are super sensitive at things we would otherwise dismiss. I have found the best way is to allow yourself to feel the pain for a short time, then get up and do something to keep your mind distracted. When I feel a bit calmer I work out who if anyone is at fault and decide on a course of action.

If I think I have been out of order I make a vow to apologise the next time I see the person. If I think they have been wrong I decide to have a quick word with them. Often I just ignore it or decide that the relationship with the person isn't worth the aggro.

What I am saying is decide how you are going to tackle each incident. Once you have made decisions you can then put it aside until you can put these into action. x

[anniebooty in reply to Hidden]

Hello thank you for replying

just a quick question you said that "it used to be a cycle but now you've managed to interrupt it" how did you do it ??? (need to learn some new techniques lol)

xxx

[Hidden in reply to anniebooty]

I am often not in touch with my feelings but they tend to go in a cycle. Every few months or so things will start going wrong with people. I will argue with someone then someone will have a go at me etc. After talking with friends I have realised I at least partially cause the disagreements. So now when it happens I make a real effort to be good to others and if I can't be to stay away from people as much as possible.

This is the way I break the cycle. That's what I was talking about. x