Hi, I've been questioning whether or not im bipolar for quite a while now, I've looked up the characteristics of it and, personally I think I fit them pretty well.. But I dot want to self diagnose and I'm too scared to talk to a doctor or something. Recently I've been extremely depressed and I just feel hollow and useless, I'm seeing fewer and fewer reasons to keep going and it's exhausting to live with. It seems like I go through this sort of feeling every month or two, and when I don't feel like this I feel super manic and paranoid and I can get super easily irritated. Sorry this post is long and I don't really know what I want out of it.. Support? A diagnosis?. I just want to stop feeling this way.
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Hello_Blue_,
I am sorry to hear you have been feeling depressed and you are finding life so difficult. I understand that you also feel you may have bipolar but do not want to self diagnose. We are not able to diagnose _Blue_.
I think it would be a good idea for you to make an appointment to see your GP if you can summon up your courage. Your GP will have seen many people feeling in a similar way to you and he/she really is the best person to see to get some help for example, with medication or perhaps referral to other services. Do you have a family member or good friend that would be willing to go with you. It may be an idea to write down your symptoms or perhaps print a copy of your Post to take with you.
If you really do not want to see your GP then you can refer yourself to your local Mental Health team.
Diagnosis does seem important to you. Please let us know how you get on.
In the meantime _Blue_ do try to be kind to yourself and remember that we are here to support you when you need.
Lottie x
I know exactly what you are going through because I feel like I've basically wrote this post, you described everything that I have felt and feeling. my low was a couple of weeks ago now when I got my worst and I find that I have a low every couple of months, and it gets really low where I feel like I don't want to do anything and I just want the feeling to go away and never come back. I have also questioned whether or not Im bipolar or have a lower form of it because I've done research on it and I fit the description perfectly, I've done multiple tests and it says that I have some form of bipolar. plus don't worry about the long post, it isn't even that long, plus the longer the better because you can express more emotions in a long post than a short one. just know that you're not alone, there are many people out there feeling the exact same way, me included. and everyone gets better, even if its just a bit and you will find the good in life and something to make it worth living.