Hi I am new here, I just joined. I feel constantly sad and lonely. I am not very social as I am very awkward and find it hard to talk to people. I have friends but I am not close enough to talk to them about things like this or just feelings in general.
I feel like I let my family down as I have no social life, cannot interact and I am overweight. I feel like they are embarrassed to have me as a daughter as I am no longer sporty or social. Now I never have any motivation to do anything except lie on the floor and watch movies and eat (the only thing that distracts me from my sadness). Even when I do things that are supposed to make me happy for example having a birthday movie day or getting good results back on my exams I still feel slightly empty or nervous and sad.
I cold talk to my mum as she had post natal depression (mental health kinda runs in my mums side of the family) she is like the only person I can talk about my feelings too but I feel it is hard to explain and I am also scared that I am just lazy and melodramatic.
Last year I phoned to look an appointment with my GP but then got scared for the reasons above and cancelled it the next day.
It would be really nice if someone could help.