I started 40mg carbimazole on 20th Jan after I saw endocrinologist, also take 80mg propranolol x2 every day. I think
they are helping but I feel very bloated and itchy, joints hurt more too. I also started to feel very tired and weepy but about 3am this morning I woke up with palpitations, all day I have been jittery, shaky, nervous and really horrible to my partner. I
have big angry rages about small things, I try not to be so horrible, today is the first time I have been like this again since
starting medication. Is this normal? I have been looking on lots
of sites but can't concentrate enough to retain what I read, I'm
sure I was having under active symptoms for a few days.
My GP has said for years I was depressed and over anxious, this
is stuck in my head now (also my partner thinks I am crazy) so
I am questioning myself today, maybe I am imagining these symptoms because the pills helped until 3am this morning? Am
I panicking or am I over active again or am I just crazy?
I am glad I have been diagnosed because this has been going on
for years, up and down all the time and I have lost lots of days at
work through it. I am off work again just now and worried I will lose my job, I worry about everything when I feel like this, my mind jumps from one thing to another like an express train, my
personality is not my own any more, either I am crying and cannot stop or I am having crazy violent thoughts, I have no
control of anything any more, I obsessively scour the internet
every day looking for answers that my brain can't seem to process, my eyes are staring and sore like they are full of sand.
Aliens have taken over my body and made me either a gibbering
wreck or an obsessive manic horrid person.
Is this it now, does this get better? I will apologise now because I
am just going to send this, if I read it I will again be too scared to
post. I am scared of all sorts of things that didn't worry me before.
I want to say thanks also to Double M for having a conversation
with me, that gave me courage to post or write down my erratic
thoughts. Now I will go and get my propranolol because my heart
is racing again.
Any advice on my mental state will be gratefully accepted.