Just to say, I'd been feeling so much more energised that I had not respected the illness from which I am now emerging. This week I crashed - and good style.
Last week I went to see a web designer - I am starting to think about getting back into practice some time hence (G-d Herself knows when), and was with him (the web designer) for 2 and a half hours. (Normally couldn't sit straight up for 2 1/2 hours, let alone have a discussion.) When I came out I felt really wobbly and a bit sick - good job OH came with and drove me home again. There was no way I could have driven back. But did I take note? Did I think of taking it easy? Was I kind, considerate or caring of myself? Was I bumps.
After a bit of a rest I felt brighter, albeit weak. Did I take note that I was still weak a couple of days later? Did I bumps. Over the next couple of days I continued to do a bit of work on my painted cabinet, I did a bit of pottering around in the garden, a bit of cleaning - bits here, bits there.
After another couple of days I crashed - and burned. Ill, weak, you know the thing, just like a nasty dose of the flu.
So here's the word of caution. I reckon it will take months and months to heal from illness borne for many months, or as in a lot of our cases on here, for years. I was out of the starting blocks with the gun. I should have just stood up and sauntered.
We put so much pressure on ourselves; to be 'useful', or needed, or wanted, or even to have the right to breathe, sometimes: through guilt, fear, frustration ... It's really hard to be kind to 'me', but if we aren't then who else? And I think this may be a problem with the LDN - that the improvement is fluctuant; depending upon the illness, its duration, the response and the patience of the patient.
I'm slowly coming back - sleeping a lot (still a novelty), reading (ditto) and sitting on my fat ... sitting down and watching nice things on TV (anyone got the Wild China DVD? Enchanting), including Harry Potter. Again. Sans guilt.
So, anyone thinking about LDN - go for it, but this stuff works with each body in its own way - idiosyncratically. But if you're like me and have a jet engine gathering dust in your brain, go easy. There will be ups, and ...
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Just a taste of how I used to be would be so lovely. Like the film, 'Cocoon'.
I'm rubbish at looking after / out for myself, too. We need to take the time to smell the flowers and that's a learned thing, certainly not a natural one.
So for you, I hope, a lesson learned. Ultimately a clarion call for others in your wake to go easy and not be seduced by feeling half human again into embracing life hell for leather. I think it's called acceptance and know it will come hard to me, too.
Thanks for sharing and hope you're soon restored and able to continue your journey xx
We all know what it is like to feel exuberant, unfortunately it doesn't last for long & we have short memories ( obviously) of how we felt two days ago when waking up was difficult. I like many others find it so difficult to look after me, when I have others to look after. 😞
I wish you well & hope your recovery is a sedate affair. Do keep us posted please
Hey, Jose! How are your gnashers? What was the experience like? Did it hurt a lot? Do they do face lifts?
Thanks for the support - I'm getting there. School of hard knocks has nothing on me!
Will try to attach a photo of my cabinet if I can - definitely not Annie Sloane, but the first time I've tried this and the first time I've done anything like a 'picture' in 10 years.
Nope - can't find a way to attach a photo, but I've put it on my banner in my profile thing (idea from Rapunzel, not my genius I'm afraid!) If you have a look let me know what you think. You will be the third person to see it, after Gray and Rapunzel (never show my pictures; too neurotic!)
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