Afraid to have ct scan because afraid of getting results

[support1]

Does anyone else feel like this, l have mental health problems and very severe anxiety. l live alone and have hardly been out in 4 months with the lockdown. l have no family who care about me and l am so alone. All l am doing is focusing on my bowels and what the Doctor may say to me if i have tests. l am absolutely scared stiff. Any positive help would be welcomed.

[Hidden]

Have you looked for or requested any help for strong anxiety and loneliness? It’s natural to feel anxious if so alone and not going out.

[Margie71]

I agree with what someone else said. See if you can get any mental health help. A lot of therapists are doing telephone therapy or video chat.

Do you have any friends or acquaintances you can connect with either by seeing them outdoors or virtually?

It won’t help you to keep over focusing on your bowels and what the dr might say. See if you can get psychotherapy and if you don’t have friends, there are lots of online groups to join such as MeetUp groups.

[Hidden]

Hello

I feel for you , I to have severe anxiety , I am on the Anxiety support groups on HU but am having bowel problems

I have been constipated and nothing seems to be moving it I have piles which are really bleeding the worse they have ever bled and I am freaked out

The Doctor has been treating them years but I think my time has run out where I need to maybe let the Hospital have a look

I am agoraphobic so that makes matters even worse trying to get me up there

I do have a husband however when you are suffering you still feel so alone with your worries

I to am frightened what they may find , in fact petrified , with this last flare up I have not slept in a week

Maybe we could agree to face our fears together ?

It maybe on line but you know someone else is going through and feeling just like you

Face the fear as they say easier said than done but maybe it has come to the stage where we both need to face it

I agree as I shall be doing that if somehow I can get there to be seen because of my MH issues things will need to be put in place so I will be telling my Doctor even though I think she knows that any way

Here if you need to talk

Take Care x

[scardycat in reply to Hidden]

Oh goodness! I just LULU's reply and it is helping me already!!! wow this is great! So I think we'll feel a little stronger after reading Lulu~1 reply :)) The Twin :))

[scardycat]

I don't think this is what your looking for, but I want to tell you Everything you said could have been written by me!! You are my twin for the day :)) Nothing funny about "our" situations i know but i just want you to know there IS someone doing exactly as yourself and the only difference is I had to move from my 20 yr. apt. exactly 3mths, 3 weeks ago.. My worst fears/anxiety/panic attacks/ etc. were magnified by 100~ Still haven't come out of that either, and yes, my only outlet was going to stores, even thrift shops just to have a little feeling that for a few hours I could feel like someone cares wheather I live or die, just friendliness of the chats... Anyway, if you check I don't answer any posts here but yours mad me tell you I feel the same empty, fearful, just hideous feeling of really being alone.. Also NEVER thought I'de hear of anyone that even has the same fixation on my bowel movements, or lack of!! Never did this before, but now everything, is exagerated ! Okay I am reading all replys to see if anyone has answers or for us! :))) A twin oceans apart~Good luck to us both! <3

[Hidden in reply to scardycat]

Hello

You should come on more and reply and talk to people , join the Anxiety Support Community or Living with Anxiety Community on Health Unlocked you will find you are not alone and so many like us , you will have more than a twin and lot's that will relate and talk to you which could help in you not feeling so lonely , I know this is via the internet but still I find it company

O goodness , we were suppose to be moving round this time to how strange but it has been put on hold because of the virus , it will be a better house etc but I get how it will have made you feel because I feel like that already and not moved yet , will be next year now !

Well I have the Doctor coming out in a bit to have a look at where the sun don't shine as we say , I feel sick now with worry

Anyway come and chat when you feel lonely and hopefully it might help a little bit :-x

[scardycat in reply to Hidden]

Oh thank you Lulu!!!@ I think your're like a bottle of magic med. Thank you so much for that reply and yes, via the internet or from mars, anyone who we can reach out to is as good to me as them next door! You take care at your Dr. appt. due now, and gosh will you feel relieved just knowing as you said: took the bull by the horns and just do it!! I copied and pasted your replys! That's good your kind and knowledgeable advice is!! Thanks for the invite, I just may pop in sometime, your wonderful :)) Hang on tight to your other half, they can be a pain in the rear, but well worth it <3 So long for know~

[Hidden in reply to scardycat]

I think the way the world is we would maybe be safer on Mars at the moment

Would be lovely to see you about just give me a shout if you see me somewhere I will always reply when I am on or message me x

[scardycat in reply to Hidden]

Sweet Lulu-1, Thank you oh so much! Your a wonderful soul <3 :))

[Hidden in reply to scardycat]

We will get through this , stay strong , we may be stronger than we think x

[Katie98]

Hi,

When I first started getting ill with my stomach issues I also developed a panic disorder and generalized health anxiety. I would have such bad chest pains I thought I was having a heart attack. My vision blurred. I literally couldn't breathe. I was losing so much weight because I was so ill and I was so focused on every symptom and trying to figure it out for myself I developed health anxiety. I'd google absolutely everything that happened to me. I'd frequently check my own pulse. I've had dozens of ECGS. Even now when I go to the doctors they always comment on my racing pulse but I can laugh it off now because I know its anxiety.

But I used to spend hours screaming on the floor, so scared I was dying. I literally refused to be alone and I was lucky to have people with me at all times because I was so scared. I wasn't left in the house alone for months. I've had periods over 6 months on three different occasions I've been completely stuck in the house. Your mind like mine is so overworked and you're doing a good job of dealing with all that you have to deal with. Its like a full time job that you don't get paid for.

I've had a CT scan myself. And trust me I was so, so scared going in but the time flies. For me it was only half my body in the machine, it didn't last long at all. It wasn't painful. I was scared for my results but once you have the clarity that you have some idea of whats going on it can help in the long term. And whether its clear or not you need to know. The anxiety of not knowing is the worst part. The fixation you described is exactly what happened to me and it still does happen.

But there are moments that I've been better. A few months at a time. And one day things will stay better. I have to believe in something and I believe in myself. I still struggle with some anxiety and depression but I don't get those crippling panic attacks anymore and I think to myself if I can overcome that, I can overcome the rest. There is hope. It can be small and fleeting but its there and you need to hold onto it.

There is support out there and its okay if you need support. I did. I still do. Try and take some small comfort that they're checking everything is okay with the CT and just think of it as a precaution for now.

Good luck xx