is this an eating disorder

[portea25]

Hello!

I am 19 years old and a sophomore in nursing school. Ever since I went to college i have developed really bad eating habits. my first year, i was taking concerta which is prescribed for ADHD which i was never diagnosed with and still given by my physician. I didn’t realize how much it suppressed my appetite, on top of the pills and my busy schedule I hardly ever ate. I came into college weighing 120lbs and ended up being around 100 when i came back. This is a lot for me because i’m very small framed and there’s not a lot of meat on my bones to begin with so i was looking really skinny. Over the summer I worked really hard to gain my weight back and gained about 10 pounds but it was difficult because i had absolutely no appetite and the thought of eating disgusted me. Even when i tried to eat i would gag. This eventually got a little better but my eating patterns and appetite still haven’t completely returned. Now my sophomore year, i have been going through a lot of stress, anxiety and a break up so i haven’t been able to eat and when i do eat i would throw up even if i ate really small amounts. I realize that this is probably just due to stress and not an eating disorder but, My mom and my aunt both had aneroxia and made themselves throw up. I would never think of doing this, i want to gain weight i hate looking so skinny. I still weigh 110 lbs but i can feel my appetite diminishing again and i’m currently taking zafron temporary to help with not throwing up my food. But even with the zafron and even when i feel the sensation of hunger i have no desire or motivation to eat. I know how ridiculous that sounds but i just don’t. Also, when i feel like this sometimes food just tastes SO different to me like it is not an enjoyable experience to eat. sometimes it is but lately it has defiantly been not enjoyable. I am going to see a Gi doctor but part of me thinks i have some kind of “subconscious” or controlling type of eating disorder. idk thoughts??

[crazycrossstitcher]

Definitely go back to your doctor and talk things through - also discuss medication as it clearly is causing you problems. Maybe you could try food supplements to help with the weight eg complain. You could try ringing ABC and talking through your thoughts/feelings around food with them - but you also need to sort out whether there are physical reasons for the sickness and suppressed appetite - or whether it is in the mind and the suppression is coming from an ED - so do get some medical advice and talk to someone about the thoughts you have around food - there must be a counsellor within the college you could talk to?

[lillyofthevalley37]

Subconscious controlling - these words make me think yes you have an eating disorder - a controlling entity telling you not to eat ? not by words and a voice - although this is the case for many - but by promptings and coercing So sadly yes I think you have an ED and I hope you get rid of it so you can get on with your life unimpeded by a gremlin on your back trying to derail everything good luck