On holiday

[AshiiLovez]

I am away in another country and am struggling with my anorexia. I can only seem to enjoy myself when drunk and completely forget Ana but when I'm sober.I realise how much I regret it and how much I'm scared of food and recovery but when I'm drunk I'm happy and am hungry even when already eaten. I can't be like this when I get home. I'm so scared I was scared this holiday vacation would do this and make me more confused. I hate my head and.I hate feeling full and looking bloated. I feel like I'm gonna gain weight quick just from this short week holiday but the whole drinking eating thing only started yesterday I really don't know what to think or do. Or feel. I need to talk to my hubby but I'm scared he won't fully understand.

[crazycrossstitcher]

Suggest you do at least try talking to hubbie - mine doesn't understand - but as I've explained my struggles and thoughts - panics and anxieties - he has been supportive - has made sure I'm eating and been gently encouraging - so at least give your husband a chance. When you return suggest you get some help - either go to your GP for a referral to ED service and/or ring ABC helpline and talk to them - but do get some help as I know from experience - without help the cycle continues and can spiral out of control.