Do I have an eating disorder?

[Paulinedm]

I weigh 60 kg and I am 164 centimetres tall. My BMI is 22. I feel like that's to much. I avoid looking in the mirror whenever I can because when I do look to myself I feel fat. I'm obsessed about weight loss and I eat in general healthy although In can't seem to manage to lose weight. I think I eat on a normal basis but I have days where I don't eat much of where I eat more than I think I should and than I feel guilty. Sometimes I put my fingers in my throath after. I excercise regulary but not obsessivly. I have lost my appetite for a few days now so I only eat because I have to and even than I feel guilty. I don't feel like what I do is wrong but I know it's not good. Do I have bulimia even though I do not experience the binding part?

[Fluffymum]

From what you say I wouldn't say you had an eating disorder. You have a healthy weight for your height. It isn't healthy to be obsessed by food however. When I was your age I was around the same height and weight as you and had similar worries. At some point I gave myself permission to eat anything I wanted... and actually this helped. I started enjoying treats guilt free but not obsessing until I was so desperate I'd eat double or triple quantities. A little bit of what you like is a good thing... better than a lot of unsatisfactory good you don't like. You're young, enjoy yourself.

[Paulinedm in reply to Fluffymum]

Thank you for helping me, I really appreciate it. Thing is, whenever I eat something I enjoy, it immediately adds up to my weight. Even the smallest things...

[crazycrossstitcher]

Suggest you need to talk to someone about your feelings around your body and food - also you say you've put your fingers down your throat - clearly that's not a healthy thing to be doing. ABC have a good website and a helpline - you could start there and see if that helps.

[Paulinedm in reply to crazycrossstitcher]

Thank you for your help! I talked about it with my parents yesterday and they're going to take me to a diëtist. I will check ABC out, thank you so much.

[Bextherex]

You should speak to your GP and get some help coming on here is the first step but you can't do it alone you need to talk to someone