Should I see a doctor???

[Cmcguinness]

Hi,

I'm 21 and at age 17 I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. I was bullied from the age of 13 for around 4 years. I currently take fluoxetine for my depression. I am on a low dose now because I was convinced that it was making me gain weight (I tried to come off it completely but I became very depressed). Over the past few years I have gone through periods of making myself sick after eating as a way to control my weight. Over the past year or so I have become obsessed with the amount of food I eat and I compare it everyone else. I also compare my body shape and weight to everyone else. I feel very self conscious. (I am a U.K. Size 10). Everytime I eat now I make myself vomit nearly straight away and if I don't I feel very guilty. I wouldn't say that I binge eat but I do eat a lot in private. I don't feel like I have bulimia because I don't necessarily binge which I know is a huge symptom. I know what I am doing is unhealthy but it has become a part of my daily life and I don't know what to do.

Any advice??

[Rubie1996]

What you're going through sounds like it's very upsetting and this must be such a difficult thing to go through. But it's great that you recognise it's unhealthy, is there someone close that you trust you can talk to this about? It's always so helpful to have support 😊 I'd suggest that talk to a GP about how you're feeling so you don't have to face this alone and to to support you as vomitting a lot can have implications to the body as I'm sure you already know. I'm also 21 taking anti depressants and have an eating disorder, I empathise with you that it's such a lot to go through at a young age good luck with everything, you can do this 😊

[crazycrossstitcher]

Suggest a visit to your GP is required - making yourself sick like this can lead to long term health issues and is extremely damaging to your body. Clearly you do need to talk to someone about your issues and depression - get some counselling support to help you resolve the issues for yourself and improve your outlook on life. ABC has a good website and a helpline.