I need to gain more?

[Volleyseven]

I'm currently at the minimum (healthy) weight for my height group, yet I have been told that I need to gain five for pounds. This is because I've missed a period, and previously lost weight from my current weight (making it seem like a dangerous place for me to my doctors). I have previously been at the weight that I'm being told to return to, and I can't stand the thought of ever being that weight again. My main memory of said weight is crying in a changing room clutching what had always been my dress size in a jumpsuit, crying because it wouldn't fit. I don't know what to do, I want my periods back again, but already being at a healthy weight makes it ten times harder to gain than it was before, not to mention those awful memories. Help.

[crazycrossstitcher]

Great you've managed to get your weight up to the minimum - I know it feels really hard to be told to gain just a little more - and suggest you need to talk to someone about how you feel around this - are you getting any counselling support - perhaps if not try the ABC helpline - they have a great support network and might help you with these thoughts you are having. I hope your periods return and that you are able to gain just that little more weight - as weight does fluctuate a couple of pounds up and down normally - it would stop you slipping below the minimum and give you just that little bit to cope should you be ill etc - but do find someone to explore your feelings about the gain and your body image/weight in general.