Is this part of the recovery process

[Sammy987]

Hi there.for those who may have viewed my previous posts, I am currently recovering form anorexia.

I have issues with constipation but am a great believer that with weight gain and consistent rating that will get better.

I have tried all sorts of supplements/diets/ avoiding food groups/eating loads of fibre. You name I've tried so.....

So I just thought (with a little of help from my GP) that I would try to eat normally... Allowing myself treats from time to time and not obsessing over high fibre foods(which could be making constipation worse) and having things like white bread, pasta and rice and nicer cereals.

I have been enjoying introducing new foods but omg it's been so hard. I battle with myself before and after eating something I feel I shouldn't have(this is more with chocolate, milkshake,puddings..All things I haven't had in ages!!!!!) I had my first Easter egg in God knows how long

It hasn't just been recently but I'd say since being very up and down with my weight I've experienced really strange noises in my belly. It's like water.. I'd say like a swishy sound. This can be morning,day or night. Maybe before or after eating. With all the other symptoms I experiene I really hope that this is part of recovery and didn't know if anyone else could share any of there experience.

I know I drink alot of water but not sure that would be the reason for it as surely it wouldn't stick in the tummy anyway.

I've been to my GP several times. They have said I don't have any severe symptoms for them to assume IBS/intolerance or any other diagnosis apart from I needed to keep eating regularly, regain my periods and get to my set point. Only then things will calm down..Boy I hope there right. But as always....They don't really understand as they don't have an ED.

Can anyone help me understand. I'd rather no negative comments. Lol

Sam xxxx

[crazycrossstitcher]

Great encouragement for us all - an Easter egg - fantastic - hope you enjoyed it. I know I struggled when I ate the "treats" and things like ice cream, sponge etc - but have now got used to them - and actually have to say they are rather enjoyable. Sometimes my tummy sounds like yours - often when I've been having rather more cups of tea than usual - so maybe you need to review your fluid intake - I make sure I don't drink excessively before meals which I found helped a lot.

[Sammy987 in reply to crazycrossstitcher]

Hi cross stitcher. Thanks so much for your reply. It makes recovery a little easier when you red reassuring messages like your own. The easter egg? I'm sure I did enjoy it but you know when your in doubt of it becaue the ED is tellin you that you don't enjoy it. I think it's been that long since I ate chocolate as ate regular treat I've alost tricked myslef into thinking I'm not that bothered if I don't ever eat it again. I'm sure the more I do it the better it will get and nicer it will taste. I have to admit I used to do sponge puddings In First recovery but something yet again that worrys me a little. .as again the takea ways fried foods.etc. I'm. Sure you know the foods I'm on about. If I keep refusing to challenge on days i feel bloated it's going to take me again long time to recover. I know I have to get to my set weight and have rid of ed behaviours before I can say I've recovered. Have you reached a recovery that your happy with now? Do u eel that your weight has settled as again atm I feel I'm getting bigger every day!!!

I really hope that I start to see a breakthrough in my constipation soon. I refuse to spend the rest of my lifeet on laxatives. (I'm not using them atm) do u have to rely on these ...I'm dressing holiday. That's when it's the worse. If you have any recommendations be great. Or simply reassurance that eating what you want, relaxing and drinking alcahol isn't going to make me become the size of an elephant. I have a doc app on the 17th may so hope to get some reassurance then to once she checks my abdomen xx

[crazycrossstitcher in reply to Sammy987]

Glad you're going to see the doc - always good to get checked out - I avoid laxatives as don't want to cause any more problems or get addicted. I was amazed how much I could eat without becoming the size of a door - like you I somehow assumed as soon as I ate anything - especially of the "list of no way" foods I'd be huge the next day - doesn't happen - I am still in recovery - but have been told - and studies show - that as they weight reaches a more normal level many of the thoughts and feelings seem to disappear - so there's a hope for the future and a reason for gaining weight. Hope docs apt goes well.

[Sammy987]

Thanks so much. Funny thing is I feel I am balooning. Lol.

But refuse to weigh myself atm.

So for someone going through recovery has your digestion eased and u don't nessaserily feel you have to eat high fibre (what I call rabbit food)all the time. I've recently cut down quite alot of fibre foods but as of yet not seeing a difference. Less movement actually. Lol.

Hoping I get some luck before holiday. Il keep going as the positive feedback really helps xx