Is everyone doing ok?

[fadedlizard]

How's everyone coping with the new site?

I've had huge problems connecting to the site in the first place (I had to change my browser in the end) and then logging in and staying logged in once I had found it. It's been a nightmare.

Hope everyone else has managed ok.

I've been thinking about you all.

Love

Lizard.xxx

[MuffinChops]

It's a load of poo!! I can't see any posts or comments, yours is the only blog I've seen so far! Can't see any of my blogs, no emails so I don't know who's commented on what, and it's bloody hard to navigate haha! Getting there with it though.

How are you?

xxxx

[fadedlizard in reply to MuffinChops]

Hi Muffin,

So pleased to hear from you ~ I was wondering how you were getting on.

This is rubbish. I'm all over the place with it ~ half the time I can't log in, for the last two days my phone can't even load the site and when I do get I've no idea what's going on. I know I'm not the most technically adept but this does seem unnecessarily difficult.

Sorry you're still struggling to get Health Professionals to take you seriously. I've been there; in their eyes you are a normal weight so they're not worried. In fact if they're like the insensitive GP I saw growing up they're happy to see you loosing weight No one could see how much I was struggling, how erratic my eating habits and food intake had become. No one took me seriously until a lovely, caring GP asked how much I was vomiting and referred me straightaway to a wonderful psychologist who specialized in eating disorders. I was 26 and had been bulimic since I was 12. My body was wrecked; my mind in tatters. Surely I would have been so much easier to treat when I was in my teens and in and out of the doctor's like a revolving door?? Surely it wasn't that hard to see how ill I was ~ even when I was presenting with open sores all over my arms due to SI they somehow didn't notice I'd fallen apart??!!!

I know it's hard, darling but keep pushing. Keep hammering on doors; keep demanding help. You aren't well and you do not deserve to be suffering like this.

I'm not great at the moment either. I can't remember the last time I made a proper meal for myself. I'm in a perpetual binge at the moment and existing off nothing but junk food. I know I need proper nutrition but I cannot seem to get out of this loop.

My depression is really bad too. My head is all over the place; dark thoughts and odd beliefs keep creeping up on me and they're getting harder to ignore. I've had little manic flurries too which really scares me. I don't know what this is and I'm too scared to go the doctors in case she thinks there is something really wrong.

Take care of yourself and stay in touch,

Love

Lizard.xxx