I wanna be an oyster buried deep in the oceanic sand
I wanna be away from all what hurts me and can’t seem to understand
I wish I had no feelings.
I wish I had no heart.
I wish I wasn’t beside myself
Feeling this all-consuming pain.
I can’t trust anyone around me,
But I still give and give and give,
You came to me by accident,
Opportunistic parasite,
You were the worst to me.
Everyone else saw the exterior protective ugliness
My unattractive shell,
My scowling face,
My pouty lips,
But you were different
I thought you were like me.
I opened up to you and trusted you
You were my favorite guy
You were more handsome than Jason Mamoa in my eyes
To everyone else you were like Erkel
Or more annoying than the creator of The Family Guy
I offered you a temporary place to hide when you needed a sanctuary
at Motel 6 or La Fuente Inn,
But you wanted something more invasive, you wanted to see where I lived
yet you didn’t want to be committed to something permanent.
I felt the need to defend myself from your passive attacks
Your guilt-trips and omissions of the truth where more hurtful than your lies
You took precautions to never be attached, but you wouldn’t leave my shell
The irony is that I never wanted to keep you trapped.
In the end, we both got something; Didn’t we?
I’m more beautiful inside-- mother-of -Pearl oyster buried in the sand
And you became an iridescent gem looking better then you ever could comprehend
handsome pearl you’re free to break new hearts again.
