Hi all,
After getting a not so great petscan yesterday and knowing that after having great results last time that now I’m back to this thing growing again, I feel like it’s time to take a look at my part.
I’ve always had a thing for sugar, it’s in damn near everything we eat, and takes a concerted effort for me to really stay away from it. Honestly, there have been many times when I’m eating sugar and I can feel my chest hurt. I know better. I just don’t always want to do better! It’s like a relationship that I can’t seem to leave, no matter how bad it makes me feel.
Sugar is my greatest addiction. But knowing that it also fuels tumors into growing, I have to say I know better. I’ll probably eventually make the switch away from wheat products too, since bread and starch essentially do the same thing. But one thing at a time~
I’m just so tired of this. I don’t want to contribute to my own demise anymore. Well meaning family members have suggested I lay off the sugar, but it has to be my choice.
Yesterday after getting the results of my scan, I just felt so hopeless again. My dad was with me and I could tell he really didn’t know what to say. It’s not the worst news ever, I mean I’ve come such a long way from last year. But I want to stick around for a while and I’m really not helping things.
I’m no expert in health, but the other side of this is that my Oncologists say there’s no problem in eating whatever you want. Eat sugar if you feel like it, it’s good for you. That’s fine if you’re not dealing with stage 4 cancer and potentially cutting your life short. For some of us sugar is a luxury that isn’t easy to afford.
I also wanted to share a video I had seen a couple of years ago about a man who reversed his cancer eliminating sugar completely, it really gave me a lot of hope if anyone is interested.
I can’t tell anyone else what to do, I know each person has their own path and has to do what works for them. My take has always been that I should be able to enjoy life and eat some sugar occasionally if I want it. The issue for me is that I eat it addictively, and once I have one of anything, it turns into many more than one. Like ten more~
Anyway I guess I just needed to get down some thoughts. I can’t say I’ll do it perfectly but feeling like with all these treatments and drugs and constant scans, I don’t really have any control over my own body anymore, this is something I do have control over.