Bad Morning Im sorry to depress anyone.

[PeaceNeed]

For the past seven years i wake up to depression, anxiety, regret and any other negative emotion you can think of.I pray for release from a world i dont belong in anymore that makes no sense to me. I have no hope.

Ive gotten no relief from mental health system and at some point may find myself in the street at the age of 65 or older.

Im sorry to vent like this I cant hold it back. I pound myself every day. I just want it to end.

[Catlexie]

I know how you feel. I am treatment resistant and have tried everything. I pray for a a miracle from God. I am going to see a functional medicine doctor next. They give different types of tests. I have tried to commit suicide about five times but God will not let me die. I cry all the time. It is just so hard. I have a counselor too. Tell me how you feel in your depression.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Catlexie]

I feel awful. And my experience God still wants me to be around.....why i have no idea. I wake up trembleing every morning over a horrible future.This idea is based on the events of the last seven years which have been full of abuse.

I hate to sound like this. Im so different from the person i was the mental health system started this downward spiral. No help at all with anything.

[ShadowGirl1]

You are not alone. Keep trying to find the right support and don't give up. Im sorry its so hard and I don't understand why but you are not alone.

[Catlexie]

God loves you and will never leave you. I know it’s hard but keep seeking help. Why has the mental health system not helped you? I don’t understand. I will pray for your healing.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Catlexie]

Hello I'm 65 and most clinics I can afford are staffed by recent grads in their 20s. I went to a crisis center in Westchester and got assaulted by one of the workers. The system just don't know how to handle people my age with cptsd, Dep and Anxiety.