two losses

I somehow coped when I had my first miscarriage last year before Christmas. Maybe that's because I got pregnant unexpectedly..I was on pill and felt pregnant...got confused, but when I started to deal and, started to fell in love with little angel growing in me... I lost it.

Last week was my biggest confusion ever. On Thursday I decided to do pregnancy test, because I felt not myself and my period was missing. It showed positive. Called to my husband to work. We where happy. This could be our fourth pregnancy. First two where beautiful...no problems and healthy children. Next day Friday I started to get pink discharge...I thought the worst and remembered my third pregnancy. Hoped that it will stop, but in evening started to bleed more. Then I know, that I am loosing my fourth baby. Saturday I lost it...I saw little fetus in bathroom..never felt so sad in my life. And now I am confused. Made appointment with GP. This time I feel that I am not good enough. Feel blessed that I have my two children who keeps me going. I can't finish to think, why God gives and then takes away?

[lou42]

I'm so sorry for your loss, it must be really hard to bear. You absolutely mustn't feel that it's you not being good enough. It's a numbers game - so many pregnancies end in miscarriage, particularly early on. It's really natural even though it's so heartbreaking for us. Don't give up hope, there are so many stories like yours with a happy ending.

You have been pregnant before, are still ovulating and conceiving fine, i am certain it will happen for you!

Xxx

[dinkydoona]

I know how you feel hon, just over a week ago I miscarried at 9 weeks and I also passed my baby in the bathroom, its so heart-breaking. I don't think I have ever cried as much in my life. I do believe that things happen for a reason and on these occasions our babies just went onto better things. Like you, I feel blessed that I have a beautiful healthy 7 year old daughter that is getting me through these sad times. Keep trying and stay positive, big hugs xxx