i have a 2 week old girl and when i found out i was pregnant i was quite upset. i have two others and suffered with hyperemisis (extreme sickness) with both of them and this time was no different. To add to things i have epilepsy so was having seizures due to not keeping down medication. At first i wanted an abortion and had it all booked but changed my mind after long conversation with my husband.
Ive been up and down with my emotions throughout my pregnancy but over the last 2 weeks things have felt quite intense. I love all my children but feel so numb at the same time, at times i feel guilty for wanting an abortion but don't want my baby its all so confusing i just want to cry all the time and not leave the house. I feel resentment towards my baby and husband because ive had to put my career on hold due to being so ill but i just want everyone to go away so i can be on my own with my baby.
i know im not making sense, i just don't know how to fix this