I was up and out early yesterday (Well, "early" is a relative term, isn't it? It was already 10:00 am!) It was my daily trek ( 0.4 miles) to the local Waitrose. The sun was shining, I could hear birds sining and it was looking like it might be an "okay" day. As I rounded the corner, and headed down the hill, I suddenly realised that for the first time, in a very, long time, I FELT LIKE ME!
No! This couldn't possibly be. I must be wrong. I checked again.... No "fuzzy brain?" Check. No "discombobulated" thoughts? Check. No overwhelming feelings of extreme "exhaustion and fatigue?" Check. No "jittery, anxious, wired" feelings of panic? Check.
Oh my goodness!!!
It was ME! I was back. I was right there, walking down the street; "NORMAL," like everyone else! (Well, again, another relative term... shall we say, I was AS normal as everyone else!)
WOW! FANTASTIC! EXCEPTIONAL!
It was however (and unfortunately) short lived; as I hit the hustle and bustle of the already crowded Waitrose, with it's "musac" and harsh fluorescent lighting. All of the familiar feelings of doom and gloom came rushing back in.
...but I was there! I saw ME.
It may have been just a momentary glimpse, but it was the old me; confident, determined, steadfast, capable. Not this shell of the woman I have become in the last 80 days.
She's in there!
"Today?" you ask... Well, today I shall attempt a "Cardamom and Lemon Cookies," recipe, using the antique cookie stamp friends brought me from France!
Wish me luck!
PS - I won't be eating them, just baking them. #nosugar, #nocarbs, #nowheatforme
Have a fantabulous day.