This is going to sound like a bit of a ramble, but I feel I have to fill in the background!
I have written posts before, one about the optimism about getting a new puppy and not letting this illness dictate and rule the rest of our lives. Late September, said puppy hurt her shoulder and on the Vet's advice, I was taking her round the garden on a lead. She suddenly lurched off to the left taking me with her, as I stupidly didn't let go of the lead! I say taking me with her, but only my top half followed as my feet didn't seem to get the message quickly enough and I ended up falling very heavily and breaking my shoulder (ironic or what!).
Anyway, that's getting better slowly with exercises and use - however, a few days after the break I was sent into the hospital with swollen legs for tests and after a full heart scan have found that although my heart pumps well,it does not relax properly allowing fluid to build up. I am now on tablets to stop that happening which seem to be working well. My breathlessness was also blamed on this, as was my asthma, my PMR and my scoliosis!
My main problem though is my feeling of instability which I tried to explain to my doctor - I now use a stick everywhere outside to make me feel safe and can step out (breath permitting) at a reasonable pace. The trouble comes if I try to look up, want to turn suddenly (my feet don't seem to understand that) or tryto walk on a surface that I do not consider to be 'safe'.
After this very long preamble, my question is 'Do others feel this vulnerability, or is it just because I am over reacting due to my fall?