I have tried to keep in control of my illnesses but I am losing the battle. I have COPD,pmr, macular degeneration,kidney stones and chronic fatigue.
The fatigue is the worst I am steeping my life away I am not talking cat naps or 1-2 hours sleep in the afternoon, I'm talking 10-15 deep sleep almost every day. I have a wife that works to bring in much needed money and she as to come home to find me sleeping yet again.
We have a son that as been unable to go outside since he was attack and robbed 8 years ago he stays in his room and only comes down for his meals.I tend to cry a lot these days asking God why me.
is there any help out there to help me break this day time sleep ,
some form of medication that will 're-energies me I need to be back in control, I need to help my wife and son, It's not right that they are looking after me , I am the one to look after them it's my duty as a husband and father.
I am falling back into my clinical depression and I am not ready to go back on the anti-depression tablets , they stop me feeling, they block out my senses .
it's 2pm and I am alone my wife And son are both asleep, I can not imagine what my wife is going though, she as moments of anger when she is worried about the way I am she accuses me of not looking after myself and telling me that she worried that I am not helping myself and she doesn't want to loss me.
If we do Go out I need a wheel chair to get around and the sheer exhaustion of just getting into the car and then getting out and into my chair leaves me exhausted.
Life is passing me and my wife bye there seems no future for us. Holidays are not possible anymore my caravan as been parked up for 2 years.
SORRY for being so melancholy just needed to put my feeling into words and hoping that things will get better.