Well, I was just looking up seeing black spots before your eyes and double vision, thinking (how naive can that be) that some unrelated (dare I say unrelated) issue was at cause - but NO! Once again, another PD symptom. It's like the never ending story - PD's symptoms seem to encompass every known or imagined defect. Whether insomnia, constipation, joint pain, vertigo, dyskensia this or dystonia that, mobility impairment, tremor control, cramping, seizing, speaking, hearing, not smelling, losing weight, gaining weight, restlessness, double vision, swallowing, etc., etc., nothing seems to escape the idiocy of this disease. It's like a big pot of soup on the burner to which more and more ingredients get tossed in. And to make it all the worse, NO ONE BUT YOU, really understands the pain and frustration. You can tell when you look in their eyes, there is a small part of recognition there that alerts you that they are having a hard time BELIEVING you. How can a person have so many complaints - a hypocondriac they're thinking. The sleepless nights, the overuse of enemas to try to stay normal, the fear of falling with every step I take - I don't talk to my friends about it anymore. Because...because... I look so normal (I fight to behave normal) I try to hide these odd little quirks and movements or lack of movements - from their eyes. Over the 9 years I have been diagnosed, I have been accused of taking cocaine (the fidgeting) marijuana (the weak muscle control) alcohol (the falling down/walking unsteadily) and just overall being a complainer. PD is the silent disease. Creeping around inside of you - you never know when it is going to show it's ugly head and make a shout out. Sometimes the meds work, but not always. Sometimes you are up (tapdancing) and sometimes you are down (stuck to a park bench wishing something would trip that trigger to get you moving). A constant battle of wits in order to accomplish today would was so easy yesterday. PD is not for the faint of heart - it takes a strong person to bear the scars of this disease.
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