1:36 am , can't sleep. Have the need to vent. Hope you don't mind, where else can I go with this shit. Please excuse the language, it was truly the best word
I feel so far out of the loop, any loop, every loop. Disconnected is my middle name. No sleep, fatigue, working, worn out, can't function while questioning myself every moment.
Trying to learn a new system at work, thought I was smart enough. The trainers look at me sometimes as if I have three heads!! Absolutely for the life of me, I cannot remember things I just did, or was shown(computer stuff you know).
Requires at least two times, sometimes three before I can recollect a few simple steps.
Am I not listening?
Want to hear something really stupid? I actually had this absurd notion of going back to school, to earn a degree I initiated many years ago. I need a new career, I can't keep up with my responsibilities at my current job, nor the physical demands.
I can't keep track of anything, hugely ridiculous to think I could manage full time schedule in college. I am sad, I want to cry....won't do me any good. guess I'll wait for another , more warranted exuse.
Thanks keyboard and a blank square, and healthunlocked...for giving me a place to go.