please excuse the lack of punctuation but I am using audio type againand I haven't yet discovered how to instruct the system if it's possible to put a full stop comma or capital maybe I should read the instructions!!
Parkinson's has made me examine all facets of my life in micro detail I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad one I'm trying to make it a good one.
amongst my ponderingsI have lately been thinking a lot about friendships. friendships naturally change I have found and growing up I have found that sometimes paths join and stay together sometime they join and then they grow apart. I don't grieve this I just view it as for it's time.
but with Parkinson's it's not the friendship that changes it's you and as a consequence things are different.
if you are fiercely independent and proud as most of us are it's very difficult to change the dependency within a friendship. most of my Close friendships are on an equal footing or they have been now that has changed dramatically. now my physical status has forced me to redefine what I need from my friendships. 90% of this change is practical but I am loath to move the boundaries in fear of the loss of the balance.
can I pick you up has turned into you'll have to pick me up
what shall we do today has turned into this is all I can do today
and invariably I always need help.
I spoke at length to my husband about this at the weekend and he concluded as follows. if the shoe was on the other foot what would you do you wouldn't question it would you? you are still a great person to be around does it not occur to you that they want to see you anyway.
that was good to hear.